http://visitelpaso.com/
Where I am: Website of sightseeing in Kurashiki
http://www.city.kurashiki.okayama.jp/dd.aspx?menuid=9900
My heritage: Geronimo (Goyathlay) – Apache, Words of wisdom
http://www.firstpeople.us/FP-Html-Wisdom/Geronimo.html
Addition aspect of my heritage: Are Chicanos the same as Mexicans?http://www.mexica.net/chicano.php
OK. From the above links, you can tell I’m going through a somewhat precarious time of self-investigation and spirit-enhancing goal setting. That is, I’m soon going to turn 34 years old and I’m analyzing where my life is heading.
Yesterday, my beautiful little girl and I went to the park and squirted our hummingbird-shaped water guns at some cicadas that we found in the trees there. It was very refreshing bonding time. Lilica’s recently has faltered a bit in her toilet training, though I know she’ll bounce right back and graduate from those pull-ups she sometimes dependent on. We had no accidents during our afternoon together
She’s soaring in her artistic abilities, in her imaginative play and in her descriptive prowess of the world around her. She’s becoming a story-teller like her daddy as well as a very active, bright member of our familia. Soon, she’ll begin kindergarten which, we hope, will continue her incredible intuitive growth and social skills at her ripe age of three.
Of course, I’m a father first, a husband in synch, a man, a son, a teacher, a learner, an expression of awareness in the Universe, all following sequentially. What I mean to say is I mean a lot of things to a lot of people and so I carry my responsibilities with purpose and an empowered heart. I am a soon-to-be 34 year old human being, soon to celebrate 6 years of marriage and in joyful constant jubilation as a parent. My daughter makes me proud. My wife makes me feel very lucky. And my continuing evolution makes me wonder about life as it unfolds.
Will I erode the blocks in my mind to successfully master the Japanese language? Will we live here in Japan indefinitely? Is there a life for us back in the States (as we expatriots call our beloved US of A). Can I find ways to get through to my students, despite language, cultural and other fabricated barriers? Attitude is a state of mind. Purpose comes from a determined mind. My spirit spreads its wings in faith of a glorious flight ahead, while professional talons grip the nopal cactus named Kurashiki Board of Education.
I know what I’m saying before I say it because the words are flowing through my vessel as an ancestor’s chant. Lilica’s descendants wait their turn. I am plugged in and must release these expressions of hope in vibrant turn of phrase. The rainbow imbued happiness that I know is the root of my life cannot be forgotten. I have to make the most of them and feed the hunger of my yet-discovered legend. I’m an actor waiting in backstage for his cue, a writer yet to ink his first book. I am the songbird without a record deal and a lover still wanting to dance.
So, how does all of this cumulate? In a word つつく, to be continued, sin fronteras…
I always thought becoming an adult meant that your life would be pretty much "set," but like you I am finding that the reality is, generally, quite the opposite. There is so much to wonder about. I wonder, too, if even I have a life back here in the States. At this early stage, I wish I had had your luck. But better things await, and everything changes. I'm glad that you and your family are doing well!
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